Wordless Wednesday #9

Some thoughts are better left untold. Some feelings & things are better left unknown.Let it be between you or the person and Allah.

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Ini Rasa Hati.Abaikan.

jerawat tumbuh dekat muka. ciss ! petanda stress ? yeahhh memang. 

before tu harap maklum ni hanya lah post tak bermoral . aku tengah sangat stress , stress dan stresss sampai aku rasa nak pergi kelahap ABC ke tutti frutti dan seangkatannya. 

Berhadapan dengan hari-hari yang pernuh kestressan di universiti makes me looks like tengah PMS hari-hari. Semuanya rasa macam tak kena. Mungkin aku tak tunjuk dari luaran. Tapi dekat dalam , aku sorang je yang tahu. Orang mungkin nampak aku okay, happy je everyday. sejujurnya i'm not okay at all. Aku hanyalah orang yang memilih untuk terus move on and just left behind all the negatives thinking, ke stressan dan tekanan buat esaimen sume bagai tuhh. Tapi bila dah always  keep teliing yourself to be always positive, akan ada sampai satu tahap aku rasa tak tahan. 

entah. kekadang. aku tak faham perasaan aku, aku tak paham diri aku. perempuan memang sukar difahami. yupp. aku rasa aku harus setuju dengan kata-kata tuh. Ada masa yang aku akn rasa taknak cakap dengan sesiapa, tanak sesapa call, taknak sesapa mesej dan aku pun tanak contact sesapa. Hmmm tapi,  itu hanya perasaan aku yang tertekan. Siapa je yang boleh hidup sensorang dalam dunia ni, kan.. 

Tadi, bila keluar dari pagar USIM tuh. .aku lupakan kejap segala esaimen yang berserabut dalam otak. Bila masuk balik  pagar, aku stress balik. Aku rasa nak balik rumah. ahhh dah kenapa aku ni ?

lately ni aku rasa nak tacing je. . hish. aku pun tak paham la.aku memang suka berlagak tabah padahal dalam hati dah beremuk -redam. remuk redam? kay. abaikan.  aku rasa aku macam dah tersepit dalam dunia sendiri. keliru tak habis2. 

Dan bila kau jumpa orang yang kau rindu sangat, kau blurr, speechless , talk nonsense. yess. congratz to myself. 

I have so much to say but you're so far away.but its okay. 

ini rasa aku. who cares kn ? aku hanya mengharapkan ketenangan di hati. Bajet puas  tulis dalam blog yang kononnya mengerti rasa ni. sekian.

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Wordless Wednesday #8

Dear Adibah, please ignore the quote above. 

but 

Please show to the world that you  have thousand of reasons to smile. :D

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I'm searching for the mood .

IM NOT IN MOOD RIGHT NOW.

I'm thinking that Twitter will be the right place. .

but

I WAS WRONG !

I'm  becoming so sensitive or ?....aah just ignore it.

SO..

Log in Blogger

and. 

HERE

Post yang tak terpost-post since September n now. .

Errr. November ?? LOL. 

Assalamualikum guys :D

wow, its September already! These word that I'm about to say is pretty common, but yeah TIME FLIES SO FAST. and it's already 18 days since the last post and I'm now stuck in USIM as a degree student.  

It seems like yesterday i was rushing to the class, fighting over each other to get into the bus, the pack TAMHIDI timetable and what  so ever.And now,  i'm already be a first degree student. whoa ! until now,  i don't know why i still can't believe it. Maybe a little bit shock. I'm still trying to adapt with the new environment eventhough it's almost one year i've been in usim. Degree environment is a little bit different i think . new friends, new lecturers, new timetable, new hostel. 

And, i think i need to be a NEW ME.I mean new in attitude and having new spirit. Life changes, and as it changes..we change with it.

Sitting with all the new classmates make me feel  how empty I am in knowledge.All of them are full of confident, and I...full of nervousness. NERVOUSNESS is really a big problem in my life. why it is so hard to gain confidence ? why ?Hmmm... 
It's just that, sometimes I wish i would have a higher confidence just like the others. So, i decided to step out from my comfort zone !

I will not just sit and watch people walk ahead of me. But people will sit and witness me walking away. That is the way it should be.

Just stay strong. No matter what happen, this journey is just begin .

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TRYING HARD TO GET THE MOOD BACK . 

LALALALA. . . where are you, mood ?

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